As I sit Here aNd look ovEr my lifE,
it'S nOt aLl that bAd,
I doN't haVe Much but I havE moRe noW thaN I hAd,
I tEnd to gRipe about tHe smAll thinGs,
FoRgettIng aboUt thE goOd thiNgs.

I AM God's chilD I am saVed,
I uSe not aCt well beHAved,
Now that I have giVen my liFe to Christ,
Things apPear haRder now tHan beFore,
It's beCAuse the baD thinGs I use to iGNore.

I didn't cAre if I siNned anD came shORt,
NotHing I did hAD an effecT upOn my hEArt,
So cHose to Do as I pleASed,
NeVer thinKing about my SOUL,
And hOw my heart coUld be reliEVed.

I liVed foR the momEnt baCk in the Day,
Not eVer tAKing the timE to pray,
A feW yeArs ago I toOk a chance,
I alloWEd mySelf to taKe a stanCe,I choSe to live riGht no mAtter whaT the cOst,

MaNy friEndS I loSt,
ThEy choSe to staY in the World,
I hAd to go

My sOUl was morE impoRtanT than tHe world,
InSteAd of liVing for SaTan,
I live for Christ,

AppReciAtion I sEem to foRget,
WhEn tiMes get Hard,
I knoW soMeday I will gEt my reWard.

Now I shEd tears ,I hUrt inSide,
BehiNd a sMile is wheRe I hiDe,
BeCauSe in the mIst of it all,
WhEn I'm loNely I have a father to call.
The daYs may seEm lonG and boRed,
And the nIGhts may seEM a litTle daRk,
I kNow my saVior hAs my heaRt.

If I hAd to waY the oDds,
the Good and tHen the Bad,
LivIng for Jesus Christ is the bEst,
Life a pErson haS ever Had..

Several days had passed after a huge confrontation , my mind and my conscious were never back to normal. I dont want to turn off the light during at night. I keep staring at the door as if waiting for someone to get caught with my very OWN naked eyes . My sickness and habit became worse and worse . Ohhh..what a poor thing! I am not sure anymore if my life will ever gonna change again, or perhaps my nightmare will stay with me forever . I am afraid ,angry ,worried ,stress ,bothered . I have an endless night wondering what is really happening to us . Why is this happening again? I thought i overcome and escape my outmost traggic experienced in my entire life, but it ! I hate it ..as if my life will stay this way forever and ever.. i am hurt, my daughter too..

My precious Izelle keep asking me "why?" "what is wrong?" "why can't you sleep?" "why are you hurting yourself?"

I dont know...i dont really know.
Who knows ...maybe YOU know..tell me why.

maybe im CRRRRAAZZZYYYyyy????

I woke up very early morning today wanting to finish what i have to do for today ..I already packed my dirty clothes since yesterday, but unfortunately i wasnt albe to do the laundry yesterday so i told myself that i have to do it TODAY!!! ora mismo!! impronto!!..hahahaha..

So i went to the laundry shop at exactly 7:45 am..frankly i wasnt sure if they open that early ..and luckily YES indeed!

I schedule everything..thats a good thing. If i dont make it,then i have to do it the very early morning next day! magkamatayan na!!! hahahah...my daughter always complaining about it..(maganda na yung maaga nyang matutunan ang pagdedeseplina sa sarili)..di ba????

Its a tough and hard job, especially if you are a single MOM! i learned my lesson anyway..good that im strong..

hahahahaha..... i am laughing to myself today . Did you know that it is raining outside and just to get my demand for myself (a new bed!!!), i forced my daughter to come with me to ikea to look for a new bed. That shop is very far from where i leave,it will take you an hour just to get there...hahahaha..
So when we reached the ikea,i was very hungry and wet,and we hurriedly go straight to the restaurant and order the food i dont know what...the taste?????its hurrible!!!
I just pretend to my daughter that it tastes good...YUCK!!!
They call it canneloi... its a mix of mashed spinach and cream wrapped inside the flower like vegetable,soak in tomato sauce with celery chop into cubes,ect...
I think God punished me.. i spoilbrat myself, what i want,i have to get it no matter what!!
And so.. there we are,looking,sitting,feeling if the bed has good quality..blablabla..so on and so fort.
I found what i want at last!..the question is how will i carry it home? i ask my daughter and guess what she suggested..."lets get a cart and take it with us until we get home..." (nayyyyyyyyy!!!!)
Anyway,at least i know what to buy...

Two weeks ago,i had a nice conversation with Mr. B. about things that WILL happen in the future. So he started with,"you know maybe someday you guys will end working with me, that can happen,you know,you just never know when", and i just smile back to him,and responded back "oh sir". Then he left for work and said he'd be back before the end of the day and so he did..

I saw his big travelling bags ready so i know that he'd be on a long trip,just not sure where and when..

Then,more weeks had passed,until today when Mrs. P. called on the phone with a hello and how are you's...and stuff.. finally she asked me if i know about Mr. B. i said "no, madam, why?"

Then the news was told that Mr. B. passed away few days ago. I was surprised, i can hear my voice shaking, i cannot speak clearly. I told her that we just had a good talk before he left. I was really surprised..i think he really knew that he is dying,that he just want to say goodbye first incase we'll never be able to see each other again..
he was so kind to A., H. & myself.

Anyway, lets just pray for his soul..and may he rest peacefully. I know he suffered enough pains which caused to his death..[/b]

Today is a busy day here at Georges Henri, celebrating their "fiesta". As we are walking ouside the street, looking to everyone smiling,talking with friends,having fun with the rides. then i saw a little boy sitting along the sidewalk crying and begging if he can have at least one ride,but no one listen to him. Then i said to myself "how can this people be so heartless and give the child a chance to have fun?"..if only i have extra money with me,i will take him the ride that he wants... i never expected that. I thought that everyone can afford everything.

hep hep huuuurayyyy!!!
coustillion time....hmmmnnnn..yumyumyum
im going to buy some,

and im going to eat some...

yum yum yum yum yum

my,my,my...
i just finished loading the american movie "first daughter",
so, i grab a chair and watched the film rolling.

at first....i laugh..

i got excited..then then..

i cried ..

my daughter and i love the film..
its like a fairy tale she said

its hilarious,funny,and inspiring.

and she said "i wish it will have a happy ending".."i love happy ending".

the only phrase she asked me is what does it mean by "our life's like a pinnochio".. what do you think is the meaning of it.

spending quality time with your child is the best thing that they can never forget...and will exchange you in return with a kiss and i love you,mom.